What in the world would I have to offer in comparison to the wonderful ladies who had already shared? What could I possibly have to say that would be helpful, meaningful, or insightful in comparison to what had already been offered through ladies that were obviously gifted, talented, and inspired.
These ladies had official titles, were published authors, or had really been “there and back”.
A nobody like me, who is still searching, stumbling, and failing most days, certainly wouldn’t do anybody any good. Especially when I am in the midst of feeling that I am barely doing myself any good during this season of my life.
You know the one.
The season of my life where I shouldn’t still be making the same mistakes over and over. The one where I have my selfishness in check when it comes to my time versus God’s time. The one where I have more answers than questions.
You know the one.
The season of my life where I am a somebody; authentic, passionate, making a difference.
During a recent book club meeting, we were discussing one of the chapters in Crazy Love by Francis Chan. The discussion led one lady to wonder out loud who was more important for her to be serving…and saving; her neighbors who didn’t know Christ or her family (mainly her children) who were living in her own home.
Inside, I got defensive. I got my mommy feathers bristled.
How could a young mother not realize that she was in one of the most important seasons of her life? A season centered on the spiritual, physical, and emotional nourishment of her young children and family.
Why in the world would she ponder giving it all up and living in an impoverished country when she had the perfect mission field living in her own home?
And then….THEN it was when I actually remembered to turn the mirror on myself!
I am still in that season!
The season of my life that has me being a BIG somebody to three very important little somebodies. While it is true that I may be nobody to a lot of people, I am the very somebody that God is using for the most important people in my life right now. I definitely still have those days when I think I should be more of the person I thought I would be by now.
AND, I for sure still have those days when I think that being nobody sure would be a lot easier than the somebody God has called me to be!
Teach them to your children, talking about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. ~ Deuteronomy 11:19
Teach your children to choose the right path, and when they are older, they will remain upon it. ~ Proverbs 22:6
I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also. ~ 2 Timothy 1:5
My prayer for myself and every other mother like me is that we will honor God by embracing the very important season He has empowered us for. I pray that I can be my children’s very own “Eunice”. If I allow God to use me as that somebody, then I have no doubt that the authenticity, passion, and drive to make a difference will weave itself through my life and their lives.
I am a 40-year young wife and mom to 3 busy little people. When I find a rare free moment, I enjoy photography, sewing, and grabbing a cup of coffee with my girlfriends. I share my adventures at www.thetruestthing.blogspot.com As I continue on my imperfect path, I am forever grateful for my salvation through Jesus and God's abundant grace.